This is my place where I can let my feelings and worries run free, New Years day started with news that my sons friend since kids, was beaten up and was in a coma, they turned the life support of monday, tuesday my sister-inlaw Lyn who you remember has been fightging cancer, with bravery, courage and dignity, was taken back to hospital, unfortunately Mount Vernon hospital where she has treatment had no beds and asked that she be taken to Hillingdon, saying that she must be admitted and her consultant would be there next morning for clinics and would see her, she was left in the waiting area - full of ill people and her with no immune system, she was beening sick, light hurt her eyes and headache, did the lovely reception listen to what she was being told and pass it on, no, in the end Lyn's partener searched the hospital till he found the cancer nurse, dragged her to A and E then they kindly found her a trolley, put her on a drip and gave the more than neaded pain relief, so arriving at hospital about mid day she finally got given a bed at half past midnight, they did try to put her in a room where some one was coughing and hawking, but she refused and finally the penny dropped that she cant be around infections!!!!! She had a CT scan next day and the cancer has spread to the brain, she is still fighting, going to have radium 5 days a week, but it might be only a couple of months left to her, its her birthday today, my grand-daughters and my late Mums, my heart is breaking again, it makes you wonder how many times it can break and how many tears you can weep, I feel so fragile and depressed but trying to keep a smile on in front of my family, but they know their Mum and when to not say too much, my husband Des is very touchy which is right as she is his little sister, one of four, but they all mean alot, but it seems we are bickering and sharp with each other some of the time, but I need hugs and told its ok, even if its not. xxxxx Dawn

Totally agree with you Dawn , we have had two deaths since Christmas Eve and my Aunt has cancer in the womb she has had chemo and is now having Radium daily too , she has lost all her hair and a lot of weight , on the positive side we have had a birth my dads friend and my Aunt who has cancers son told them on Christmas day his wife is pregnant so there is some good news
Hope things start to look up for you and your family soon,
Sophie x

Hope this helps Dawn.
Love, Doreen xx

Dawn, what a really difficult time you are going through. I am sending you gentle cyber ((( hugs ))). Stress and grief can make us snappy with our nearest and dearest. I hope your friends treatemnt goes well.

Thinking of you!!

Deb x

Dear Dawn,

Sending warm hugs and kind thoughts, it must seem as if it is all too much. Be brave and try to ignore your husband's behavior. He must be hurting and so frightened as well and it needs you to hold him and help him cope with this.

Thinking of you,

Eleanor x

Dear Dawn,

My heart goes out to you and Yes you do need comforting hugs they mean so much. I hope by knowing that we NRAS friends are "out there" for you will bring you some comfort.
Gentle and caring hugs
Sue

Dear Dawn,

Sending you big warm cyber hugs and hoping during this difficult time you're receiving lots of TLC.

Take Care,

Love,


Barbara
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Thank you my friends I dont know what I would do without your strength and support and love. They let Lyn home last night and she went out with her sons and daughter for a birthday dinner, I told you she is special how she handles that horrible decease, she is a star!! They say every cloud has a silver lining, so I am sharing some good news that I have just heard from our son Daniel and Anna, they are expecting their second child 20th August, which is 2 days in front of our 40th anniversary!! JennieB Bernie was born about the same time as their James who was 2yr in november who they tried for years for. it is good to be able to give you all good news for a change. I had a sleepless night last night - nodded off about midnight and was awake from 2am, read a stupid Mills and Boon book by 7am, I call those books 'no brainers' but its an easy read and relaxing (ignore all the lust and huffing and puffing) its a funny old world that gives us the highs and lows so close together and yes it does test your faith at times, but I know he is there just at times he is busy. I still feel wobbley, fragile and down, but talking to Lyn this afternoon she sounded up beat and strong, more that likely pain relieve working, I don't think she has been told yet how long, but she will make the most of it and so will we. Thank you all for your replies they mean alot cos I can feel your support all those hands holding me up! Thank you all, Dawn xxxxxxx

Jenni i love that - it just says it all, its so true...
It is at times like these so essential for the soul to "find a little loveliness" ~ i think that is just about the most beautiful and sensible thought i have ever heard..... xxxxx
Love to you all ~ Liz xxxxx

Dear Dawn,

I don't know why the world can be both beautiful and cruel at the same time, but it is. There are no words but to say that you , and your sister-in-law, are being prayed for here.

It is so tragic that your sister-in-law is suffering the way she is, and the big 'why' that everyone asks is always unanswered. BUT through her suffering she has shown amazing fortitude and is an inspiration to all those around her, both her family and people who don't even know her. This is an example that will remain in all their hearts forever.

It is sounds such an absurdity to say that good things often come from bad but they do, and they will for always.

Much love always,

Amanda